‘Within 60 days I was in what I now call the 3D’s – Drug, Daring and Death – and that is where I remained for three years. I was doing drugs constantly, 24 hours a day. I never went straight. I went to church stoned. I went to my job stoned. I also ruined my career.
I was living on the edge of a daring life. I was the guy you saw on the ski slopes coming down missing trees, doing flips and hitting this ski jumps at 90 miles per hour.
I was driving fast and drinking and driving because I had lost my self-worth. I had everything bottled up within me. I was waiting for life to be snatched from me because it had lost its meaning and I wanted to die to atone for the one I had allowed to be taken.’
Healing conference, Milwaukee 1993